I had to put on my big girl panties over the last couple days and make some tough decisions. As most of you know, my entire summer has been formulated around the Great Illini 70.3 which will occur this Saturday, September 1st.
Things became much more difficult when I tore the tendon in my foot on June 2nd but we pushed forward in rehab with the only goal being that I complete the 70.3 on September 1st. In order to make this happen, the plan was to run the first loop of the run portion (6.55 miles) and then run/walk the second loop at whatever pace I could manage. No time goal, just a quest to finish. This focus to finish, to not let anymore bibs die, to not add another DNF to the roster, to not give up
and just go sit on the couch and gain weight has propelled me forward this summer when honestly, I was pretty empty and upset inside. I remained positive overall but I was bummed out!
I also spent a lot of time on the trainer inside due to mechanical issues and
not being able to run scheduling issues and that didn’t help my attitude mood!
So week after week, I rode, swam, did rehab exercises and then at the beginning of this month we brought back the run. The run, the glorious run, that is so freeing to the soul and puts a smile on my face even in the most trying times. Things were good again.
But not really. Although the foot is “better” as in better than it was, it is a long way from normal. Even further from being pain free. So last Friday, during rehab/therapy, it was laid open like this, “Well, you do what you want and I’ll fix whatever damage comes from it…… but this is probably not a good idea”. Awesome.
The bottom line is that I “could” finish the 70.3 on Saturday but why risk causing further damage? Why chance making this rehab process even one day longer? Or worse yet, re-tear the tendon which is in healing mode and have to start completely over. Or rupture the
stupid Plantar Fascia which screams at me daily. There isn’t a reason in my opinion. I have nothing to prove. This process for me has always been about my health and gaining a higher level of fitness and it would be counter productive to move forward with the 70.3 on Saturday due to the fact that I am not properly trained or healed up for the 13.1 mile run.
I am, however, perfectly able to participate in the Olympic distance event (.94 mile swim, 24.9 mile bike & 6.2 mile run) without causing further damage. I’m certainly not running fast at this point but I can cover the distance and that’s what I plan to do in order to get a FINISH and be proud of the fact that I didn’t just give up when it would have been the easy thing to do.
I saw a TRI necklace on CafePress and it was titled TRIumph.
I really feel like this is what 2012 is to me, learning to TRIumph when the cards aren’t stacked in my favor. Learning that being tough, or a BAMR, isn’t about pushing thru the pain but rather taking a minute to listen to the body and focus on myself so that I can heal and be better in the future. So Great Illini, I’m still coming, just downgrade me to the Olympic distance, please! I mean, if it’s good enough for the Olympians, it’s good enough for me!
I’m so happy to put a close on this season Saturday and start fresh again. New strategies and goals are on the horizon. It’s a new dawn, a new day……
** Happy TRIumphing ** Amanda – TooTallFritz ** email@example.com