“Comparison is the Thief of Joy” Franklin Roosevelt
You probably won’t hear me say that I’m “livin’ the life” unless that statement is dripping with sarcasm. While many I know are exactly where they want to be in life, or maybe even doing better than they had hoped, I am fully immersed in a very, very messy and chaotic life. If it’s quiet in my house then the family is either sick or sleeping. Otherwise we have total chaos, kids screaming & fighting, dogs running around, dishes falling out of the sink, laundry piled up and dog hair flying. Is this where I expected to be at this point in my life? I can’t even say. I don’t think I had a “master plan” like some. I know that I didn’t anticipate still being a resident of Illinois. I know that I never looked at my future self and saw a “family picture” oozing with lovely, well behaved little ones. To be honest, I’ve always felt like I was living on borrowed time so never thought much about life beyond the here and now. And I still don’t.
While some sit around and boast about their professional accomplishments, brimming bank accounts and growing 401Ks, I just wonder how I’m going to get thru today. I wonder who’s going to do the work piled on my desk if I get hit by a bus on the way home. I wonder if traffic will be bad
again as I try to get home in time to pick up Aby from practice. I wonder if Michael is terrorizing the staff and students at daycare. I wonder if I’ll be able to squeeze in my speed work before dinner. I wonder what the hell we are having for dinner and dream that someone will cook it for me. When to do laundry? When will I grocery shop? I hope the dog didn’t pee on the floor again today. Gosh, it’s time to pay the bills, don’t forget!
That’s what I think about. Not retirement. Not grandchildren. Not my bank account
or lack thereof. Certainly not the fact that Aby will be driving a car in 4 short years. I think about today. The here and now. I try to be thankful for what I have: a family that usually loves me, a job, a house, a little ambition to be healthy and fit, a normal, messy and chaotic life. I don’t have time to be looking to see what the neighbors are doing because that will be the exact instant the Michael is FINALLY able to climb all the way to the top of the fridge and jump. The here and now. That’s my life. I don’t compare. I don’t wonder why or why not. I don’t think about what if or maybe. I just focus on now. Living in the moment. Being grateful for the little things. Making it happen if it’s possible. Letting it slide if it’s not. The here and the now. That’s the life I live. That’s the life I love.
So take a moment to think about the gifts in your life. Acknowledge that you may not be in charge of the master plan so just sit back and enjoy the ride, even if it is a little bumpy along the way.
** Live YOUR Life ** Amanda – TooTallFritz **